Baby's 17 birthday.
Just a random picture that pretty much lifted up my spirits this morning. :-) Dead beat, reached home at 2am last night and only managed to sleep at 4. I woke up on the wrong side on the bed today, with a bad mood. Such a bad way to start off my day. Sometimes its really hard to communicate and try to understand my parents. I have to keep up with their expectations, and when i don't, they claim they're disappointed. Disappointment is a big word to me, and i get really affected by it, imagine your parents constantly tell you that they're disappointed. I used to be the type to want to gain my parents trust. I'd still like to gain their trust, but lets face it, easier said then done. To be honest, right now, even if they claim they're disappointed, i wouldn't really bother. Not like in the past, where i would apologize and try to make amendments. I've gotten so used to disappointment, that i don't feel anything anymore. Not intending on celebrating Mothers' Day which is tomorrow, i don't want to force myself into making her happy, when i clearly know that i'm not interested in talking to her. One month has gone by, and i've made very minimal contact with my parents. I like it better this way. Ah i'm so broke, all my money is in my mother's hands.. I need to shop. :( Did i mention how mundane my life is?
Have to constantly remind myself that i shouldn't trust easily. To think i almost let my guard down...