Happy birthday

Pardon the shitty photos. They were taken a year ago and the lighting sucks  .


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, BESTFRIEND. ♥

It's 17 June today, and its your bithday. I'm writing a freaking blogpost for you, so you better be grateful cause my comp is fucking lagging and its really difficult for me to type it all out. PLUS, i'm not gonna be like the rest and just send you a 140 word tweet, wishing you happy birthday. First of all, i want to thank you, thank you for being such a amazing and truly caring friend. I'll never forget how we first met, from the quarell over a stupid class tee shirt design on facebook. Hilarious shit, and its amazing to know how fast time passes. Thank you for being the greatest listening ear ever, i'll never forget how everytime whenever i was upset, angry or having a rough time, you'd be the first person to rush down to meet me just to cheer me up or talk on the phone with me on hours on end, you never never fail to be there whenever i need you even when you were in Dubai and you specially called me just to check if i'm fine. :') I'm so happy that you're my bestfriend cause i couldn't ask for any better bestfriend other than you. I know i haven't been a perfect and ideal bestfriend, always taking our friendship for granted and contacting you as and when i like and always making you rush down to meet me at the last minute (sentosa and many others). In fact i've been a lousy bestfriend. Sorry. You're the only one that i trust wholeheartedly (must be honoured ok bcus i rarely trust people) because NEVER once have you ever let me down. You're always the one putting in the effort in this friendship. You were there at my fucking lowest and you have no idea how grateful i am to have a friend like you. I STILL HAVE THE SUPER SUPER SUPER HUGE BEAR YOU GAVE ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR. I know that recently we've drifted and i've become a changed person, for the worst. I'm going against everything i used to believe in, i've become someone i thought i'll never be, and i have no idea how but i know i'll try to change for the better. I'm glad that i've become so much stronger now, that i don't have to rely on you to always be there for me anymore , at least it'll lessen your burden (HAHA OK I KNOW I V TROUBLESOME OK). You're one of the few rare people who actually mean it when they say "I'm always be there if you ever need me" because by far, you've really stucked by my side thru both ups and downs. I have so many happy and valuable memories of our friendship, its a fucking rarity you'll find a true friend nowadays I truly thank god for the fact that 15 years ago, you were born, and that you entered my life because my life has been better ever since i met you. :')

P/s: Forgive me for the really really late post because my laptop is seriously hanging like shit, and i couldnt wait till tomorrow to tell you this thats why i'm posting this right now despite the lag. FORGIVE ME OK.

Happiness shall bind me.

"When one person stops trying in a relationship, that's when everything starts to fall apart." 
  

Met Eliza and Jared today, just for a little catch up. Got my tongue re-pierced, such a impulsive decision. Couldn't speak properly, worst off having pastamania for lunch was a total hassle! Took damn long to eat, and guess what, in the end i didn't manage to finish my meal... Eliza and Jared must've had fun laughing at me, watching me having difficulty eating and talking properly. HOW MEAN. In case anyone's wondering, they're not a couple, don't be mistaken!



Been lazing around so much lately, it's almost the end of the holidays and i haven't started on my work yet. How time flies. Used to be so neat and studious. Ok, must study tomorrow for sure, have to stop procrastinating really!!!! MUST MUST MUST. I guess i'll be meeting Germaine ong tomorrow for some studying and catch up session, how i miss my bestfriend. "True friendship isn't based on how many times you see each other, but the comfort and ease of telling each other your deepest and darkest secrets without the fear of being betrayed. True friendship is when you can still feel as close as ever, even if you haven't met each other for months" How true. Can't believe the rate which i'm spending, splurging on practically everything. SIGH, someone should just teach me to save up, how i wish i had unlimited cash. Fat hope...



I'm having so many mixed thoughts and emotions now. Sometimes i really wonder why i get affected and upset by one's insincerity and lack of effort. It's like we're falling in this place where both parties aren't willing to back down. Makes me wonder why i'm willing to put in the effort for people who never seem to appreciate it, and instead take it for granted.

Oh well, shall update later on this week. Goodnight xo. "It sucks when people hold on to that pain too long that they become totally judgemental and pessimistic about everything" @sxcasian

Bring back the good old days

Finally home after 3 days. Stayed over at Francisca's house on Friday all the way to today. Went to Club Soul on Friday night and it was pretty boring... No feel to club at all. Tried to contact Claire but to no avail, seems like she's on her missing in action spree again.. To think that we wanted to celebrate her birthday at Club Soul that day, as a surprise for her. Really hate it when everything is perfectly planned out, just to have something unexpected to screw everything up. Can't believe at this age i'm already getting bored of partying and everything, wonder how boring is it going to be when i grow up.. Back to topic, Saturday was well spent on lazing around and feasting at Francisca's house with Rachael. Wasn't feeling really well in the middle of the night, sweet of Rachael, Fran and her sister to hunt for medication and make milk for me. Had very minimum sleep these few days, surviving on 4 hours of sleep per day. Seems like my family life is never gonna stabilize. Funny how everytime i try to put in the effort to communicate, my efforts go unappreciated, and when i finally decide to not care, they start to care. After you put in your effort to do something for others, the least you would expect, is for them to appreciate it. It's only fair that way, isn't it? Oh well, after so many years, all i've learnt in this family is that i can only count on myself. How confusing, at times i want to be a good daughter that fares well academically and in life. At times, i just want to party and have fun and forget about everything for awhile. The distractions we face as a adolescent is infuriatingly annoying. But i should know better, should start concentrating on my future, besides without education and money, everything is fucking impossible. Sad to say, i'm already finding it so difficult to balance out my life. Scrolling through tumblr rn, and i realized i'm able to relate my life so much to tumblr, its as if someone else is publishing my thoughts. How amusing.



I need to go church soon. I thank god for all that i have, today.

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Party

   I love you Mwsx ♥ You've given me much more than i deserve   Overdued post. Have been heading to town these few days with my boyfriend and my two girls, Francisca and Claire + Sean, Jordan, Zhiwei and One. Not sure if there's anyone else... I forgot. Stayed over at Francisca's house on Monday, had a fun time with the girls doing stupid things. I miss partying... Vaunt5 was a disappointment, hopefully gonna party more this holidays, before school starts. Talking about school, i really have to start on revision. I'm so addicted to DJ Kzee's Volume 13 dance mix right now, have been replaying it non stop. Supposed to head down to meet the girls today but i'm so tired and the rate of fast i spend my money, makes me speechless. Been so long since i last met my baby Francisca, from January till now. How time flies. Spent my day with baby yesterday at home, sleeping, since baby was sick and we both were so tired from the lack of sleep lately , before heading out for dinner and a movie. Watched Snow white and the huntsmen, the movie was good. Really grateful that i have such a loving and caring boyfriend. He never fails to take time out from his busy schedule to spend time with me. Baby sent me home, felt like ages since we had such a good time together alone. Must say that i'm quite happy that life at home has been better and i love dad and mom for being such understanding parents afterall... Have more to blog about, but i'm really lazy to elaborate. Till next time then x.

Happy birthday Claire

V5

Vaunt5 on Saturday with my boyfriend, Francisca, Claire, Eliza, Jordan, and a few more people i forgot who... Hectic day, had no feel at all, and half the time i'm literally drinking just for the sake of it, not to mention claire, francisca and i smoked a whole pack of iceblast.. The thought of me laying my hands on those nasty things makes me feel so utterly disgusted with myself. Oh well, at least i'm not addicted to smoking or whatsoever, just a social smoker. I'm lazy to elaborate, all i can say is i'm really grateful to have my boyfriend with me, to support me and all, he was so tired and had to go home to complete his projects and study before his exams on Monday, yet he accompanied me all night and even let me sleep on his lap on the way home. Sigh... Really blessed and lucky i have such a boyfriend. Didn't take any photos at all due to the constant rush for time.

Sometimes i just wish that our lives were simpler. Not constantly tangled up and involved in all these complications. Lately i've become very displeased by what i'm constantly lacking and people are telling me i should be grateful for what i have, yes ok bla bla... but really, if you were surrounded by people who have everything you seem to be lacking, wouldn't you feel the same? Over thinking really kills at times. If only i could turn back time, there'll be so many amendments i'll make, so that i won't ever have to end up in my current state. Would have given everything up i have for now, to be something more. There i go again, back to my usual self. Desperately need a drastic change in my lifestyle. How i wish i could turn back time.

Should start on my revision soon x, hate how holidays always seems to go by in a flash.