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Vaunt5 on Saturday with my boyfriend, Francisca, Claire, Eliza, Jordan, and a few more people i forgot who... Hectic day, had no feel at all, and half the time i'm literally drinking just for the sake of it, not to mention claire, francisca and i smoked a whole pack of iceblast.. The thought of me laying my hands on those nasty things makes me feel so utterly disgusted with myself. Oh well, at least i'm not addicted to smoking or whatsoever, just a social smoker. I'm lazy to elaborate, all i can say is i'm really grateful to have my boyfriend with me, to support me and all, he was so tired and had to go home to complete his projects and study before his exams on Monday, yet he accompanied me all night and even let me sleep on his lap on the way home. Sigh... Really blessed and lucky i have such a boyfriend. Didn't take any photos at all due to the constant rush for time.

Sometimes i just wish that our lives were simpler. Not constantly tangled up and involved in all these complications. Lately i've become very displeased by what i'm constantly lacking and people are telling me i should be grateful for what i have, yes ok bla bla... but really, if you were surrounded by people who have everything you seem to be lacking, wouldn't you feel the same? Over thinking really kills at times. If only i could turn back time, there'll be so many amendments i'll make, so that i won't ever have to end up in my current state. Would have given everything up i have for now, to be something more. There i go again, back to my usual self. Desperately need a drastic change in my lifestyle. How i wish i could turn back time.

Should start on my revision soon x, hate how holidays always seems to go by in a flash.