Short update

So many things have happened in a short period of time. I think everything just sums up to the fact that i've learnt alot, be it for the better or bad. Realised the complications of clubbing can bring about major disruptions to relationships, be it friendships, family relationships or relationships between couples. Putting that aside, June's been a good getaway for me and harsh impact of reality finally came down on me recently. So much has happened and i'm pretty much astounded by the rate at how fast things have changed. After a series of bad events, i just told myself i'll start working hard on how to improve myself. That's been going pretty much well lately. The strength of hatred, hurt and pain keeps me going, pushing me to do my best. Amazing how pain can serve as a good motivational factor, I'll remember to use it to my advantage. It's fucking scary how apathetic i've grown to become, not sure if its due to having my fair share of experiences or that i've came to terms with reality, who knows? Received so many comments from my close friends on my sudden change in attitude and personality and honestly i can't help thinking what would have they done if they were me? I honestly think i'm managing well for someone with a massive load of problems. I don't even get affected anymore, selfish way of thinking but it fucking does save you from the hurt, maybe being apathetic has its good points too.. Ok enough of harping on that. I'm determined to make some major changes in my life, and this time, changes for the benefit of myself in the long run.